Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Yes, I'm going insane.
Here I am, it's 3am. I feel as if some sort of strange power has just come over me. I was talking with a friend tonight about how epic music is, and the effect it has on our lives...honestly without music I would not "exist" in this world. I am going through such an awkward phase in my life right now, my emotions are seriously everywhere. I'm 20 years old, I have absolutely no idea what I am doing or what I want. Yet at the same time, I seem so sure of what I want. And people seem to think that I have all the answers, I don't. I got into bed tonight, put together a playlist of songs to put me to sleep, and closed my eyes. The first song to play may have possibly been one of those "meant to be" moments. I thought, I guess I'm feeling this song...it always cheers me up. Suddenly it's like a mother freaking epiphany. "It's a bittersweet symphony this life..." epic. One of my all time favorite songs that I listen to every day without fail. I even put it on a CD so that all the ladies at my work have to listen to it every day. I don't know why this song has suddenly "changed my life" at this random as shit time in the middle of the night. But I feel so content with what I am doing. Only weeks ago I had a friend tell me, "I don't listen to music much anymore, I don't have time." MAKE TIME. Why would you go through life without it? I sound like such a kook, and I don't even know if in the morning I'll end up posting this. But music is my soul. Music is my home sweet home. You can make a home for yourself anywhere in the world with the help of music, it's destiny. "I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down, you know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet". I don't know what I'm saying anymore, or why I had to get up and turn my laptop back on at 3 in the stupid morning. I should be sleeping right now, but I have a lot of thoughts at night. They keep me awake, I fall asleep, wake up...poof. Like magic they are gone. I'm not the best writer, and I don't make a lot of sense. But one thing I do know is that music will get you through the hardest times of your life, and it will make some of the best times of your life EPIC. Don't go through life without a rhythm, make your own. But always let the brilliance of other souls rhythms into your life. If you don't, you fail. Life is nothing without music, don't be a dumbhead and say you have "no time". Make time, you'll always be happy you did. That is all. Goodnight world.