physical conundrum.

I woke up feeling incredibly grumpy this morning. Well, no. I take that back. I felt just as you do when you first wake up, tired. I got up and got going, I looked in the mirror and was reminded that my hair still looked jet black. Strike one. Then as both my hair and makeup weren't cooperating, I started to get even more frustrated. Strike two. Finally, I tame the tresses and fix the face.. and head to my closet. I open it, and what do you know? Nothing to wear! Everything was either not work appropriate or I hated it and questioned why I ever bought it. Strike three. I've gone throughout my whole day feeling very stressed about the way I look, and any girl who cares about her looks will tell you that this really puts a damper on your day. I've had a few moments today where I've felt as though I might cry, simply because I am stressed about my looks, and for some reason that makes every other issue even more dramatic than it needs to be. I've got solutions to my problems but some are just unattainable right now. For the wardrobe, I thank my lucky stars Christmas is just around the corner. For the hair, I either get a very light spray tan so that I don't look so washed out, or I find my way back to a nice honey brown. The dilemma here is, last time we tried to get rid of the dark in my hair I lost all of my curl. My hair hasn't been the same since. I'm kicking myself for ever going black in the first place. I need to go back to the color I was when I was just a child. I think it might be my saving grace. Anyway, now that all of my complaints are out of the way, I will say this day has ended on the right note. I came home to my parents house, had some dinner, and wrapped the remainder of my gifts. I've got a few more to pick up on my lunch break tomorrow, and I'm expecting one more in the mail..and then I'm done. Finally. My bank account is empty but it will be worth it on Christmas morn. I have beautiful glittery wrapping paper and colorful bows, and I must admit, my skills are incredible. I've found a new love in wrapping gifts. I can't wait to spend some time with my family this weekend. I miss them each day, but moving out was the thing I needed to strengthen my relationships with each one of them. I hope you all have the happiest Christmas! I can't wait to read about what everyone gets.

XX JR